Feeling insanely lucky…

There are days when marriage is hard. There are days when I barely see Alan and there are days that I am a total nightmare and I forget just how lucky I am. 

Not only did I stumble across the best friend in the world or the best support for my madness when I met Alan but I found someone who loved me for Me! 

He is the kindest man I know with the biggest heart and the greatest work ethic. He always does all he can to help others and puts everyone else first.

He hates being complimented so this whole thing is going to make him all squirmy 🙂 

Yesterday Alan came home feeling pretty rough and full of the beginnings of a cold AKA man flu!! So I said I would grab some ginger and honey to make him a soothing hot drink (yes he sounds like a softy) but I decided to put together a man flu survival box 🙂 

With a variety of essentials.

So this is all the stuff crammed in a box (apart from the tissues they don’t fit!) 

Here’s a better view

So tissues both a box and packs. 

Fresh ginger, honey, strepsils, reeses pieces, Lindor Chocolates, antibacterial hand gel, olbas oil, some gingerbread biscuits, cold relief medication, Listerine mouth wash, vitamin C tablets and a mug 🙂 

Things like this are my way of showing him just how much he means to me and how much I love him and will always be there to help and do anything I can for him.

I am exceptionally lucky to have such a wonderful husband and life together with such an exciting future. 

Anyway hopefully this little box will help him feel better before the cold takes hold and hits him when he is working so so hard and I don’t like him feeling ill. 


This last week and weekend has been all about progress…..progress in many areas. Firstly we have moved forward with the sale of our house. Not just an offer now and things are moving in the right direction so fingers crossed nothing happens and it all goes through!! 

So as well as the house sale moving forward we have been making a bit more progress at the caravan! We have added a ‘skirt’ to our caravan (the great description Sarah gave it) basically we have added some cladding to the bottom of the caravan to help protect it from the wind. 

This was a good team effort with some help from Father-in-law and then Alan and I working as a team to get a lot of the boards in place. We still have some other sides to do but this was a good start!! 

The other thing we have been working on is the next step on the decking for access to the caravan. Since the weather has turned it has begun to get a tad muddy so it is needed now. Alan has been an absolute star today working on getting this all in place ready so we can add the decking next weekend and be one step closer to having proper steps 🙂 

Here is the progress so far! 

Okay so this isn’t quite how we ended the day. Alan worked well into the dark and there were 2 more concreted supports in those holes and 2 more cross supports as well. The mud was a lot more boggy by the end but Alan did an awesome job and bless him for working so hard on his only day off!! 

I shall add more updated pictures next weekend when we do more. We are dog sitting this week so apologies for the obscene amount of dog images that will appear!! 

I have also been working lots and trying to improve my watercolour painting and drawing here are a couple of examples but I have a few more to work on next week 🙂 

Buried Alive

Buried Alive….that is pretty much how I feel right now. 

This weekend was amazing a great family get together with food, fireworks and a great bonfire. It as a success. People had a good time and my food all went to plan. 

But I spent two days cooking. Lots of time preparing and I haven’t managed to catch my breath.

With that and lots of people needing lots from me and at every turn feeling like I am not good enough or doing a good job it is taking it’s toll. 

Everywhere I turn I am charging too much and being made to feel worthless. Trying my hardest to understand what someone means only to feel like I’m a frustrating when all I am trying to do is help. 

Don’t get me wrong I have clients I love working with. Those who share something of themselves with me. Those who are grateful when I go the extra mile. But still it comes back to people wanting it done for a cheap as can be making me feel like my knowledge and skill is worthless. 

None of this is helped by the fact that I have become rubbish at remembering to take my anti depressants making my mood and overall wellbeing all over the place and the fact that it is November and I don’t get to see my husband hardly at all! 

I am tired. I am lonely and I am feeling sorry for myself. All of which hinder any hope of weight loss or regaining control over my life!

I just can’t breath. But I WILL keep fighting!!

Torn in Two

The last few weeks have been rather tricky, there has been a lot of back and forth. We love being in the caravan, it is so much closer for Alan’s work and we have more time together so I will never complain.


However we do have a house, a stone built, 4 walled, warm, sturdy house. One with a big kitchen, 2 showers and a very comfy sofa and soon we will be unable to say this is the case. So we need to be making the most of it and actually live in the house a little.

I am so torn!

Not only do we have a house we ought to be making the most of but also trying to live in two places at once is mad and starting to get a bit confusing and messy. Even just having the constant situation with food, making sure there is bits for Alan’s lunch and margarine and the basics. Milk for instance, even if we are there for one night it is nice to have milk for tea!

This is all made harder by the fact that I am the one that needs to pack the caravan up or pack the house up ready to move from one to the other. That means thinking about my clothes, Alan’s clothes for work and at home, warm clothes, slippers, Alan’s xbox, my computer, the Now TV box +controller (I forgot it once which was not helpful) food, any kitchen bits. Any food left in the fridge, emptying the bin, making sure the washing up is done, ensuring the place is tidy and I have fuel.

Then doing all the same again a week later….I also have to make sure we have shower gel in both locations, toilet roll in both places, bin bags and sandwich bags in both homes, toothpaste wherever we are.

The biggest issue we have had is last night. So after Alan showered and we were about to get in to bed, like 11:30, I went to put my phone on charge….only to realise the one thing I has forgotten this time around was BOTH phone chargers.

My phone on 10%, Alan’s on 11%


One of the main issues being that we rely on our phones to wake us up in the morning and Alan needed to be up at 5:30. So at 11:30 last night we were hunting round the house for any spare chargers or cables…….10 minutes later we were getting dressed and heading out to the 24hour Tesco in Wrexham (So glad we were at Ivy) to purchase 2 new chargers.


Now we have chargers in both places….that stops that issue.

This weekend, is BONFIRE NIGHT!! Very exciting as we are having a family party with food, fun and fireworks. I will share some pictures next week. Alan is excited, apparently it is very grown up to be able to buy fireworks and actually light them!! Here is my trial run of Cupcakes!